Monday, December 27, 2010
27dec2010 breakthru retreat day 1 , BB yr 10
one of the least confusing post, this will be.
today is breakthru retreat day one at ECP.
sthe last time i met some of them was in 2008. and that was not all of them cuz i missed some gatherings over the years.
today is breakthru retreat day one at ECP.
ultimate frisbees, 12oclock, getting mini potted plants to wish ppl a merry christmas but it's over now, castles for barbie and ken, rain rain rain, and the hide-marble-throw-frisbee game which represents how we hide our treasures and sin from God, even though it is obviously exposed.
a great learning day and long time since i saw matt chu this kind of zhao.
maybe cuz being reintegrated in to young ppl ministry after like 3 years, need so much adjustment. there's so much WE wanna serve, and maybe cuz i didnt serve in chruch for 3 years, i have all these zany ideas. tho integrating into the circle of ideas juz can't seem to work out yet.
Nevermind, these aren't important. What's important is serving the LORD, and pointing others too.
juz read a post of hypocrisy of a christian colleague MIA-ing and encouraging others too. that could have been any single one of my ex colleagues in army.
no one liked me. could it be because of an integrity issue at the heart?
what u so called believe is not lived out. duh.
and went out with the BB guys.
it's been 10 years 10 years! since we were sec 1, and since we knew each other in BB.
sthe last time i met some of them was in 2008. and that was not all of them cuz i missed some gatherings over the years.most of us graduated in 2004 and 2005. but everyone seems to be going somewhere, at least a job, or a direction, even in ndu. i thought i did, but it's all so fuzzy once again!
Kenneth's a paralegal, James' a Sailing Coach, Wayne.. studying?, JT at SMU, JLiew is going to Aus to study at feb6, Sam is in NDU, but gonna study overseas too after ORD, so is ben. LYO's life is juz beginning, and going up up man.
let's hope the next gathering wont be when we get married or kids.
friendship is minstry. uncle muntoh was saying yesterday at mich's bday at sazeirya, that our purpose is to shine shine shine....
break my heart for what breaks Yours, so goes that certain Brooke Fraser song.
but when u do feel the breaking heart of God, then? feel emo as can be possible?
but when u do feel the breaking heart of God, then? feel emo as can be possible?
why am i doing so much church work?
to be honest, i'm wondering too.
God, be my 2011. be my future.
be the one that i decide to be practical and get a well paying job or do full time. God You'll see me thru the seasons.
be the one that i decide to be practical and get a well paying job or do full time. God You'll see me thru the seasons.
Seeing the image of lostness will be etched in my mind. Lostness so professional, holding a cig, and so much the stereotype.
lostness, hiding emotional pain, and being bitter at love, for that hurts too much.
lostness, hiding emotional pain, and being bitter at love, for that hurts too much.
"i wanna feel again" goes bagteria. Abstract as it is, it does make sense. (the first part of the guy waving the flag is harder to understand though)
Lord, help us love CHRIST together.
DG has the heart. HE expands it.
goodnite and time to prepare for breakthru day 2.
# posted by n.i.C @ 8:11 PM 
