Monday, December 27, 2010

 

27dec2010 breakthru retreat day 1 , BB yr 10

one of the least confusing post, this will be.

today is breakthru retreat day one at ECP.
ultimate frisbees, 12oclock, getting mini potted plants to wish ppl a merry christmas but it's over now, castles for barbie and ken, rain rain rain, and the hide-marble-throw-frisbee game which represents how we hide our treasures and sin from God, even though it is obviously exposed.

a great learning day and long time since i saw matt chu this kind of zhao.

maybe cuz being reintegrated in to young ppl ministry after like 3 years, need so much adjustment. there's so much WE wanna serve, and maybe cuz i didnt serve in chruch for 3 years, i have all these zany ideas. tho integrating into the circle of ideas juz can't seem to work out yet.

Nevermind, these aren't important. What's important is serving the LORD, and pointing others too.

juz read a post of hypocrisy of a christian colleague MIA-ing and encouraging others too. that could have been any single one of my ex colleagues in army.
no one liked me. could it be because of an integrity issue at the heart?
what u so called believe is not lived out. duh.

and went out with the BB guys.
it's been 10 years 10 years! since we were sec 1, and since we knew each other in BB.





sthe last time i met some of them was in 2008. and that was not all of them cuz i missed some gatherings over the years.

most of us graduated in 2004 and 2005. but everyone seems to be going somewhere, at least a job, or a direction, even in ndu. i thought i did, but it's all so fuzzy once again!

Kenneth's a paralegal, James' a Sailing Coach, Wayne.. studying?, JT at SMU, JLiew is going to Aus to study at feb6, Sam is in NDU, but gonna study overseas too after ORD, so is ben. LYO's life is juz beginning, and going up up man.

let's hope the next gathering wont be when we get married or kids.

friendship is minstry. uncle muntoh was saying yesterday at mich's bday at sazeirya, that our purpose is to shine shine shine....

break my heart for what breaks Yours, so goes that certain Brooke Fraser song.
but when u do feel the breaking heart of God, then? feel emo as can be possible?

why am i doing so much church work?
to be honest, i'm wondering too.

God, be my 2011. be my future.
be the one that i decide to be practical and get a well paying job or do full time. God You'll see me thru the seasons.

Seeing the image of lostness will be etched in my mind. Lostness so professional, holding a cig, and so much the stereotype.
lostness, hiding emotional pain, and being bitter at love, for that hurts too much.

"i wanna feel again" goes bagteria. Abstract as it is, it does make sense. (the first part of the guy waving the flag is harder to understand though)

Lord, help us love CHRIST together.
DG has the heart. HE expands it.

goodnite and time to prepare for breakthru day 2.


Thursday, December 23, 2010

 

In Whom i can trust

In Whom i can trust
Steven Wee

C
You are the Lord
Dm7
in whom i can trust.
C/E F G
You are the rock I can stand upon
Am
Every step of the way,
E/C#
You take my hand and say
C/G D/F#
You will always be here right beside me
Dm7 F/G
When i call on you, i know You'll come to me



chorus:

G C G/B
You are my Lord
Am Em
in whom i can trust
F
You are my fortress
C/E
You're my deliverer
Bb
My shield,
F/G
My strength
G C G/B
For all of my days,
Am G D/F#
i place my hope in Jesus
Dm7
WHo loved me with His life
G
The ROCK of my salvation
C
In Whom i can trust


Friday, December 17, 2010

 

this answers my qn somewhat.

http://www.desiringgod.org/resource-library/ask-pastor-john/what-made-it-ok-for-god-to-kill-women-and-children-in-the-old-testament


 

it's high time for some reflection

the value of blogging is that there is an audience to read, imagined or not. compared to journalling, where its utter personal territory.

so there.. ppl be wise in what u type. it shows how wise or unwise u are...

anyways, i need to force myself to reflect. i begin to see how it's a 'discipline'.

how much am i willing to forgo for the sake of The Christ? Xinyi coming back from aussie, wow, so much reflections. of all places, she says in aussie, Christians are really persecuted. there is actually a cost involved to say u are a christian.

and could it be that our inaction as individual christians and corporately reflect our convictions? too many christians are stuck in this "know more than u do" syndrome. why is it we are the most significant grp of ppl who don't do what we know?

action action action.
christianity has alot of action involved.

but maybe we reflect too much.
and do too little.
ironically, in doing more, we have deeper reflections. a good thing.

so Lord help us do as much as we believe.

maybe there is no cost per se to believe in Christ here in SG. officially we can reach like 20% christianity.
but hey, this is like THE time to really believe, cuz there IS freedom. i'm not really into academic debates how little freedom there is here, but yea, maybe in my bubble, i think there is. good times are blessings. bad times are blessings if we do see it as so.

..."in the good times and bad times, i'll trust in Him, He is my strong protector and shelter. Power belongs to Him, my God, and my solid rock, my heavenly Father!
my hope it comes from God alone, in Him will i depend. His constant love will be my protection, i will never be shaken..."

song for SUPA camp this year. Solid rock was the theme, and this simple song with its actions is so ministering.

Kidz camp ministers so much
in the simplicity God is profound.

amazing thing that SUPA camp does is that it doesnt bother to dumb down the bible for the kids. they have to read and memorise ESV. thats solid stuff. but they contextualise they lesson so that they are engaged and they remember.

Maybe thats mission? Engaging, Contextualising so they will remember the Christ.
imagine preaching gospel using Santa Claus?
a mentor figure of mine did. MT says he only knows Christ and the bible. so contextualise. tell them what is true from what is familiar to them.

imagine in a mission field where that culture sacrifices pigs to the deities. imagine a missionary using that to explain Christ the sacrifice. Taboo? maybe? to Jews and Muslims definitely.
but what if Christ is preached? we don't know the work that The Sovereign can do.

so maybe, just maybe, pushing down stuff like "cuz the bible said so" doesnt make sense.

contextualising takes very much a whole lot of effort. it involves u knowing the bible.

but hey, it's high time for some action too.
all these ideas we always moot, never come to pass, cuz no one dares to step up and do it.
we end up focussing on admin stuff and managing ppl and church, rather than engaging.

oh well.
action + faith + The Word.

move on.

my buddy has been rebuking much about it for quite some time. years. "it's not what u think u can do, but what u can really offer and do."
only God can empower me.

Christabel, my co leader from SU youth camp was reflecting to me abt how during the ropes course, we were like shaking like jelly, but we still had to take that step. so faith comes as i step out
not juz praying bout it, highly necessary as that is.

God help us.



Wednesday, December 15, 2010

 

good stuff.

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=474158099491&comments

liberating.


 

tasting the good stuff

will make u wish there were more.
but good stuff comes in moderation.

tasting the good stuff, you will wish for it again and again.
people forget, i hope i won't.
they have tasted it before.. and when they do forget, it appears as something so deprived and twisted.

it's all because they have tasted good stuff before, and all their being is longing for it all over again.

maybe the devil tries to help us forget the good stuff.


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