Friday, December 12, 2008
blog inspired mood...
though it doesn't mean i'll blog well...
interesting day hanging out with the peeps i missed so much. my cf siblings...
josh,lukekat, mich, leon in the afternoon,
luke, ian, eliza, and yufang in the evening...
it's just this sense of normalcy and the friendships forged too deep for any of us to let go.
still havent met with hq, and EugEm :P
but something yf shared on the way home stuck to me...
somebody said to her..
"i don't care about you, nor do i really wanna know you as a person...
but
i only care bout your spiritual health.."
superbly, doesnt really makes sense hor??
then i began to wonder...
that's prolly how i was (and could still be) thinking....
was i too caught up in doing the task, forgetting to make a friend with him rather than saw him as a person, needing friends too?
was i thinking that i'm too superior to him to be his friend and i have to meet him simply cuz i have to?
what about him who's isolated by his bunkmates? was i wanting to be friends with him simply cuz i hope he'll accept Christ?
not what my Lord will do, nic.
where is the love?
(starts singing....)
anyyyyywayyyyyssssss.....
so true lah.. how to be [insert holier-than-thou voice with ancient cathedral choir in the background]
"concerned for your spiritual health darling"
but totally unconcerned about the person and what's going on in his/her's life?
oh well...
seasons in life...
seasons in the sun...
seasons of people-ability lost...
seasons of isolation...
seasons of moodswings (never had such moods and mood swings in all my life...... guess there's always a first..)
seasons of intense doubt, of intense want to give up...
seasons of lemon tea, peach tea, apple tea, and some new promegranate tea flavour..
okkkkkk...
but through it all..
You carry me thru...
who am i?
trust.delight.commit..
i'll wait and see.
it's not about me. not about us. never was.never will be.
God.
only You can..
it's a journeeyyy.. (as kestcelest always says :P)
actually, i was blinded.. why could i not see?
You are at work Lord...
You are the Light.
oh well..
my eyes are closing...
shall...
as most times,
abruptly end here.
.
(mannn.. must stop this disconnected way of blogging and jumping all around... distracted heart.. haiz..)
interesting day hanging out with the peeps i missed so much. my cf siblings...
josh,lukekat, mich, leon in the afternoon,
luke, ian, eliza, and yufang in the evening...
it's just this sense of normalcy and the friendships forged too deep for any of us to let go.
still havent met with hq, and EugEm :P
but something yf shared on the way home stuck to me...
somebody said to her..
"i don't care about you, nor do i really wanna know you as a person...
but
i only care bout your spiritual health.."
superbly, doesnt really makes sense hor??
then i began to wonder...
that's prolly how i was (and could still be) thinking....
was i too caught up in doing the task, forgetting to make a friend with him rather than saw him as a person, needing friends too?
was i thinking that i'm too superior to him to be his friend and i have to meet him simply cuz i have to?
what about him who's isolated by his bunkmates? was i wanting to be friends with him simply cuz i hope he'll accept Christ?
not what my Lord will do, nic.
where is the love?
(starts singing....)
anyyyyywayyyyyssssss.....
so true lah.. how to be [insert holier-than-thou voice with ancient cathedral choir in the background]
"concerned for your spiritual health darling"
but totally unconcerned about the person and what's going on in his/her's life?
oh well...
seasons in life...
seasons in the sun...
seasons of people-ability lost...
seasons of isolation...
seasons of moodswings (never had such moods and mood swings in all my life...... guess there's always a first..)
seasons of intense doubt, of intense want to give up...
seasons of lemon tea, peach tea, apple tea, and some new promegranate tea flavour..
okkkkkk...
but through it all..
You carry me thru...
who am i?
trust.delight.commit..
i'll wait and see.
it's not about me. not about us. never was.never will be.
God.
only You can..
it's a journeeyyy.. (as kestcelest always says :P)
actually, i was blinded.. why could i not see?
You are at work Lord...
You are the Light.
oh well..
my eyes are closing...
shall...
as most times,
abruptly end here.
.
(mannn.. must stop this disconnected way of blogging and jumping all around... distracted heart.. haiz..)
# posted by n.i.C @ 9:31 PM 
